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well the past few months have been wild for me. i won't share too much b/c nobody cares that much, ha. i've been stressed, sad, struggling with feeling lightheaded & dizzy several times a day. had an MRI, EKG, and other tests done. maybe it's vertigo? trying a new medicine for that and heading to see a neurologist. so there's that. i've been scared and sad. it's not fun feeling like you can't live your life b/c of an ailment! sweet Jodie Creswell encouraged me last night with the reminder that we do not have a spirit of fear but that of a sound mind b/c of HIM. amen. thanks Jodie. i've been in a tough place spiritually, physically, and emotionally. i'll just be honest! moments of panic/fear/sadness have been too common for me. i feel bad admitting that bc i am a Christian. i do trust the Lord so i feel like a failure having those feelings. but they are real my friend. very real. but in all of it, i can say that the Lord has been faithful. o

i do not make new years resolutions. i appreciate people who do. i don't have anything against them. i'm not typically a goal setter or dreamer. never have been. am i lame? i do think about my life and things i hope may change. so i am thoughtful about life i guess. i just don't declare anything big really. for the past few years i have had a theme for the year. last year was Freedom & Identity. i worked, prayed hard for freedom from the sin that entangled me for too many years. i also worked to make sure i find my identity in Christ....not my pants size. good grief. i have absolutely come a LONG way. i am so thankful. i'm not perfect. it's a daily prayer and keeps me seeking His face. but i am in a much better place moving into 2015 than i was 2014. amen. this year has brought some fun changes. my favorite is G. i LOVE that he can talk to me. i knew this would be my favorite time of parenting. for 2+ years i wondered what he was thinking. now i can as