just because

since ehrrbody seems to be getting engaged these days i thought i'd tell our engagement story. odds are i've written about it before. but let's get real. if i can't remember if i have... i know nobody else remembers either. jay and i were besties for several years before we started dating. lots of good times and BAD times with that. i'm pretty sure i've written that story...if not, will do. so we started dating in december of 2005. we already knew basically everything about each other so dating was kinda pointless. ha. i knew i wanted to marry jay when i met him. he took A LOT longer to catch on to our love... but i think he knew when we started dating we'd get hitched. fast forward to april 2006. it was easter sunday. sporting my seersucker dress (from steve & barrys! sarah jane!!)  i arrived at church ready to celebrate Jesus' resurrection and then get my grub on at the Webbs. YUM. i didn't think too much of the day b/c jay had assure...

so tuesday morning started pretty normal. went to work, got a lot done before lunch and was feeling pretty good. went to lunch by myself. sometimes i like to do that. but i go places where i know they know i have friends/family, ha. is that weird?! so i grabbed my kindle and went to lunch. it was relaxing and perfect. seriously, i got in my car after lunch and thought, "wow, i am freezing, chills that just won't stop!" got back to work and by the time i got to my desk i thought i was going to vomit. super nauseous. it was awful. so i shut my laptop and headed home. i thought if i took a hot shower and rested a bit that i'd feel better. nope, not so much. it was 2:30pm when i laid down and i was down til friday morning! awful. tuesday was the worst. everything hurt. everything. i couldn't even get comfortable in bed. the only way i could lay and not want to die was on my stomach. so thats pretty much how i stayed. i was beyond nauseous, achy, awful chills.....

few things to start... i put gabe on the preschool waiting list at st. luke today. i keep telling people that i feel like i'm back in middle school hoping to not be rejected or picked last in PE class. no joke. i'm nervous. i got no credit for gabe having 4 cousins in the school. dang. in fact i didn't get to check any of the "bump you to the top of the list" boxes. we're probably screwed. christ community - where's our preschool? i might be able to get my child in :) second, i asked a lady that i have loved and admired all my life to start mentoring me. this girl needs it. i feel like i'm stuck in a rut spiritually. hope she says yes. oh LAWD i'm just lining myself up for rejection. mmk. let me tell you about my saturday. i hope i'm not the only one who has dumb days like this! it all started with an early morning run with madison. apparently neither one of us thought checking the forecast was important because we were completely u...

last week was the longest week of my life. i'm about to sound like the worst christian ever. and i hope pastor keefee doesn't read this... i hate prayer week. i know, i know. i'm pretty positive i just got assigned an extra porch to sweep in heaven for saying that. but it is such a LONG week for jay, gabe and myself. jay has to be gone every evening from 5-8:15ish and work during the day. so really, we just don't see him...for a week. i didn't realize how much we were going to miss him until we had to go sat - friday night having supper without him. me reading the Bible out loud to myself and a baby who isn't listening is sad. not to mention having a conversation. homegirl likes to talk. so i did. i just felt like a fool b/c i was basically talking to myself. gabe didn't seem too interested in my stories. he interrupted a lot. soooo friday night i decided to be somewhat godly and actually GO to prayer night. granted i was late getting out of the hous...

i will never forget january 17, 2012. back up a day and it was the day we met Gs birth mom! i was a nervous wreck. we got lost on the way. norman + gps = hilarious. we met Angie and our adoption counselor at a fabulous mexican restaurant. my parents were with us but they ate at the seafood place next door so we wouldn't seem crazy, ha. my mom never really ate i'm pretty sure. she was spying on us the whole time. she even told their waitress what was going on next door. my mom and i have always wanted to be detectives. i'm sure she scaled walls like a spy trying to catch a glimpse... i've told this story before so i won't go into detail. i just remember thinking: no way this beautiful girl just gave birth. she was so thin! and i would NOT have talked about my addiction to MURDER SHOWS had i known she could've changed her mind about us during lunch. thank the Lord she likes crime/murder shows as well. i also basically licked my plate, jays plate and all th...

things i have learned lately: unisom is STRONG. i took one (tiny tiny pill) sunday night and no joke, felt like i was coming out of anesthesia monday morning when my alarm went off. i basically did uncommon athlete in my sleep monday morning. i won't be taking that again unless i have 2 days to sleep. thanks jay. i am not a good ice cream scooper. i took out my right middle finger knuckle. dairy queen ice cream is incredibly smooth. how do they get it like that? it's like it has marshmallow fluff in it!? eating like its the holidays during and AFTER the holidays makes every article of clothing you own fit annoyingly TIGHT. time to cool it, kaci. humidity in january is extra annoying. just dance is my favorite hobby. i am addicted. i look old when i am running. i've never understood women who wear makeup to workout...until i saw a picture of myself from my last half marathon. oh my. i look rough!  but still, i will not be wearing makeup. how can girls stand to ...

i was thinking about my life and how life changed in 2012. then i read my friends blog. she wrote some things she learned about herself in 2012. we had several in common! i've always admired emily geyer so it made me smile that we had some common traits. 2012 - changed my life. obviously b/c of Gabriel Wyatt Lesley. (best.kid.ever.) here are some things i learned about myself, life, marriage, etc. just like marriage did, becoming a mom reminded me of how grossly selfish i am. ugh. i hate that part of myself. i didn't know i could love being a mom. i really wasn't sure i had it in me. i wasn't that girl that was yearning for a house full of kids. ok, i'm still not that girl. 2 kids should be plenty...God willing for a 2nd. jay will pay not to change a diaper. money in my pocket. bring on the poop. walking to the kitchen in the middle of the night is dangerous...toys everywhere. i cleanup after Gabe but somehow he still manages to trip me daily. everything...