just because

i have confessed before that i am a brat. i really am. i'm ashamed of myself. i know i probably get on Gods nerves. here's an example of how bratty i can be... i like 50 degrees for my morning run. favorite temp. long sleeved tshirt & shorts = perfection. but then after i run i'm gonna need it to at least warm up to 75 or 80. then i can wear shorts all day. then preferably i'd like it to cool off at night just enough to need a light jacket. too bad i dont live in california. this weather rarely happens in ga. i also prefer it not to be dark when i run in the mornings. again, not happening. i think i get like a 2 or 3 week window of daylight before the time changes. i am weird. although i hate the time change b/c it whacks out my body. i like for it to get dark early during the holidays. seems cozy for christmas. but if it only lasted from thanksgiving day to christmas day, that'd be ideal. don't worry. i am aware that i am obnoxious. i've said ...

i need new ideas for "catering" for TA events. keep in mind we are a non-profit! waffle house = awesome. pizza is easy but i need fresh ideas! help. we are having a TA talent show this saturday. i am excited. i think it is going to be fun/hilarious. we've got a guy doing stand up comedy. i would have diarrhea. i can't be funny if i'm "supposed" to be. i don't have a talent. not sure why God skipped me. i really want to be at the beach. i love spring and i love the beach. especially when its not ridiculously hot. i dont get in the ocean though. i just like to lay out, take a dip in the pool and eat/read magazines. so gabe woke up at 1:30am wanting a bottle. so i gave him one. then i couldn't go back to sleep. i just laid in bed thinking about work stuff. so i turned on the tv. i got totally involved in some show. it was soooooooo good. of course it was about murder/crime. i was tense waiting to see what the outcome was going to be. but.....

G is down for a nap. so i thought i'd blog. i have nothing to say. never good. i am still thanking God for a healthy household. that week of sickness was awful. it is super fun to have G back. he is talkative, playful, funny and happy. YAY! he is all boy and i love it. if he's covered in dirt he is in heaven. he also likes to spit. that makes me laugh. dancing is another one of his favorite things. super fun! we dance in the house, car, in restaurants...wherever! i hope he always has fun like that. i must confess i kinda wanted to leave him at walmart yesterday. oh.my.crazy.child. he didnt want to sit in the cart or stand in the buggy part. awesome. he had to be held. so i had to push a super heavy cart with one arm while holding a heavy baby. we were dangerous. he thinks he's helping push the cart. really he's just making everything even harder by leaning forward... he wouldnt even sit so i could unload to pay or reload to leave. awesome. not to mention the p...

jay told me i complained too much on fb last week. sorry if i was annoying. i thought my status updates were simply honest & i tried to say something lighthearted. oh well. to be honest - the week was HARD. let's recap. friday feb 22 gabe was in rare form. that's our day together. normally we have fun together but that day he was grumpy & high...HIGH maintenance. i shouldn've known something was up... we put him down around 7:30 or so. i forced myself to stay up til 8:30. yeah, i said it 8:30. jay decided he was going to the gym so he left around 9. (i dont understand working out at 9pm but he doesn't understand 5:30am so we're even...) after working out jay decided to go to Dennys. (isn't that what everyone does..?! haha.) so when i heard gabe crying around 11pm i laid there waiting for jay to get him. no such luck. he wasn't home. so i opened to door to Gs room and SKADOOSH - a big nasty scent of vomit overwhelmed me. it broke my heart....

since ehrrbody seems to be getting engaged these days i thought i'd tell our engagement story. odds are i've written about it before. but let's get real. if i can't remember if i have... i know nobody else remembers either. jay and i were besties for several years before we started dating. lots of good times and BAD times with that. i'm pretty sure i've written that story...if not, will do. so we started dating in december of 2005. we already knew basically everything about each other so dating was kinda pointless. ha. i knew i wanted to marry jay when i met him. he took A LOT longer to catch on to our love... but i think he knew when we started dating we'd get hitched. fast forward to april 2006. it was easter sunday. sporting my seersucker dress (from steve & barrys! sarah jane!!)  i arrived at church ready to celebrate Jesus' resurrection and then get my grub on at the Webbs. YUM. i didn't think too much of the day b/c jay had assure...

so tuesday morning started pretty normal. went to work, got a lot done before lunch and was feeling pretty good. went to lunch by myself. sometimes i like to do that. but i go places where i know they know i have friends/family, ha. is that weird?! so i grabbed my kindle and went to lunch. it was relaxing and perfect. seriously, i got in my car after lunch and thought, "wow, i am freezing, chills that just won't stop!" got back to work and by the time i got to my desk i thought i was going to vomit. super nauseous. it was awful. so i shut my laptop and headed home. i thought if i took a hot shower and rested a bit that i'd feel better. nope, not so much. it was 2:30pm when i laid down and i was down til friday morning! awful. tuesday was the worst. everything hurt. everything. i couldn't even get comfortable in bed. the only way i could lay and not want to die was on my stomach. so thats pretty much how i stayed. i was beyond nauseous, achy, awful chills.....

few things to start... i put gabe on the preschool waiting list at st. luke today. i keep telling people that i feel like i'm back in middle school hoping to not be rejected or picked last in PE class. no joke. i'm nervous. i got no credit for gabe having 4 cousins in the school. dang. in fact i didn't get to check any of the "bump you to the top of the list" boxes. we're probably screwed. christ community - where's our preschool? i might be able to get my child in :) second, i asked a lady that i have loved and admired all my life to start mentoring me. this girl needs it. i feel like i'm stuck in a rut spiritually. hope she says yes. oh LAWD i'm just lining myself up for rejection. mmk. let me tell you about my saturday. i hope i'm not the only one who has dumb days like this! it all started with an early morning run with madison. apparently neither one of us thought checking the forecast was important because we were completely u...