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i really do LOVE my job. it makes my heart happy to spend my days planning fun events for teenagers, putting together retreats, and loving on students. and it's a good thing b/c jay and i talked about jobs i would be horrible at during lunch today...pretty much everything. i saw a lady wearing a geek squad shirt. hands down, that'd be the WORST job for me. i know nothing about computers. i don't even know what kind of cell phone i have. and Lord knows i don't know a thing about anything else dealing with technology. seriously, it's bad. i would also be horrible at any job dealing with animals...b/c i don't like them, at all. i know people may think i am horrible for that. but i just don't care for them. i think animals are dirty. i don't want a dog on my couch! cats are evil. and i don't even know what else people would consider having as a pet. ?! but i'm out... i MIGHT, might ride a horse. but i dont want to. last time i rode a horse my

praying for Boston. evil sucks. sooooo jay is HOME! army wives and folks who have to go long periods without their spouses are my new heros. (that sentence may be grammatically horendous...?!) but seriously. i am so thankful that jay doesnt travel for a living. oh i would miss him so much. and my fb friends would hate me for sharing my sadness. friday i was so giddy. i could finally tell gabe that dad was coming home. i could finally throw away jays itinerary and just know he was headed home! fabulous. gabe really did fall asleep saying "dada" over and over. i almost cried it was so sweet. i thought i was going to have to take tylenol pm to sleep. it was like christmas. but once i snuggled into the middle of our big ol bed (knowing it was my last night to have the middle...) i relaxed and slept pretty hard. got up saturday and didn't want to do anything except see jay. ha. but i knew i had to wait til noonish. gabe and i played with every toy in the house be

i get sad when i follow someone's blog and they go one day without writing. so i thought i should probably write. hmm, whats been going on... well, jay left for israel. i won't lie. i prayed til last minute that there would be an upheaval (is that a word?) over there so they would have to cancel the trip. i know i'm wrong for that. yesterday we spent the day together. G, Jay and me. it was fun...ish. i fought tears all dang day. i know i'm lame. i stayed strong until we were on our way to sign our tax papers. then i burst into tears. like a complete fool. i already looked homeless b/c i didn't fix my hair, have on makeup or clothes that matched too well. then i looked insane with puffy eyes and a red nose. i know that poor lady thought i was strung out or something. and gabe's hair looked greasy all day yesterday. i cannot figure out why. so he looked rough. and jay has this awful "duck dynasty" beard going on. i can only imagine what we looked l