just because

it's been a while since i've blogged so i figured i'd take a minute and write. this past month has been wild with trips to different doctors trying to figure out all my strange symptoms. mostly lightheadedness, heart palpitations, fatigue, etc.  we're slowly ruling things out which is nice! leaning towards a thyroid issue. which we have known was off but had a doctor put me on medication that i shouldn't have been taking without another medicine with it. so there's that...a year on the wrong medicine. awesome. here's what my monday looked like: it was marathon doctor day. started with endocrinologist at 7:45am, neurologist at 9:30am and cardiologist at 11:30am.  almost passed out after having blood drawn at first appt. apparently if you take 3 things of my blood i'mma be lightheaded! last time i DID pass out. this time just came close. it was terrible. sadly i didn't have TIME to pass out because i had to drive (quickly!) my my next

there are so many things i love about being Gs mom. i have never loved someone like i love him. it's the closest i can ever come to understanding the way God loves me. i am writing to my sweet little boy today. but while i'm writing there are other little guys on my heart...big ones too! so this is to my sweet Gabriel Wyatt Lesley (but also to Vasa, Jack, Weston, John Will, Clayton, Moses, Sills...my other nephews) you are a child of our "good good Father. and you are loved by Him...it's who you are!" i hope and pray that you will live in that truth, always. this world is gross. it can be mean. it can hurt. but our God is bigger than all that. i wish i could go before your every step and make life less painful. i wouldn't take away life's trials because they will bring you to His feet. but i would shield you from some of the awful lies that you will certainly face.  you are growing up so fast. i am trying so hard to help you grow into a