just because

i've been busy with adoption work lately which is super fun and exciting. it is also a sweet reminder of all the phases of adoption feel like. ...some sweet reminder some hard! y'all know i don't think before i blog. i just start writing. so some of this may seem scattered, may not make much sense and could seem pitiful...ha but whatever. before i get into how fun life is with gabe i want to relive some of the moments of the adoption process. the first thing is making the decision to start the process. kinda scary! it's not as simple as having sex and being pregnant. i used to complain that most people just got to have fun sex and have a child. LAWD the adoption process is MUCH less fun ;) i'm NOT saying that getting pregnant is easy for everyone. i'm NOT saying it's not as special. it is EVERY bit as awesome as adoption. but a part of me thinks that God called us to adopt so that i would completely appreciate G. for me it's easy to love a chil...

i don't know why i keep thinking of people to blog about. but i have some pretty cool people in my life so i guess this is my way of sharing them with you :) today i'm going to tell you all about (well not all) Leah Carr. i like her. she blogged about me a while back. it absolutely surprised and blessed me. because i admire and respect her so much her words meant the world to me and still do. i'll certainly make a list of things i love about her but i'll start just sharing my heart... i first met Leah when she was finishing up her senior year in high school. i had just come on staff with TAs and remember seeing her at a TNBS. she had a big group of friends and they seemed so happy, comfortable and fun. none of them believe me but i wanted to get to know them b/c i thought they seemed fun BUT because they were about to graduate my boss at the time told me to focus on some younger girls that i could build relationships with that summer and into the next school year....

i think josh is one of Gods best ideas. ever. for two days now i have wanted to sit down and blog about how much i love my brother. i've had a stupid/crazy couple days with feeling lightheaded and weak so i haven't quite been myself. don't worry. i have been to the doctor. EKG was fine as was my blood pressure and blood sugar. they did some blood work and scheduled an MRI for next week. i'll keep you updated. until then...just know i feel silly and embarrassed by the whole thing. now, back to josh. it only seems fitting that when i had my feeling faint episode this morning i called him. which was strange b/c i DO NOT make phone calls. so he knew something was up! sweet thing let me come lay on the couch in his office and then drove me to the doctors office (instead of the ER where they told me to go. no thank you.) that's josh for you. he didn't hesitate. he just kept me calm, kept me laughing and went with me to the doctors office. (well we tried mercym...