just because

last week was the longest week of my life. i'm about to sound like the worst christian ever. and i hope pastor keefee doesn't read this... i hate prayer week. i know, i know. i'm pretty positive i just got assigned an extra porch to sweep in heaven for saying that. but it is such a LONG week for jay, gabe and myself. jay has to be gone every evening from 5-8:15ish and work during the day. so really, we just don't see him...for a week. i didn't realize how much we were going to miss him until we had to go sat - friday night having supper without him. me reading the Bible out loud to myself and a baby who isn't listening is sad. not to mention having a conversation. homegirl likes to talk. so i did. i just felt like a fool b/c i was basically talking to myself. gabe didn't seem too interested in my stories. he interrupted a lot. soooo friday night i decided to be somewhat godly and actually GO to prayer night. granted i was late getting out of the hous...

i will never forget january 17, 2012. back up a day and it was the day we met Gs birth mom! i was a nervous wreck. we got lost on the way. norman + gps = hilarious. we met Angie and our adoption counselor at a fabulous mexican restaurant. my parents were with us but they ate at the seafood place next door so we wouldn't seem crazy, ha. my mom never really ate i'm pretty sure. she was spying on us the whole time. she even told their waitress what was going on next door. my mom and i have always wanted to be detectives. i'm sure she scaled walls like a spy trying to catch a glimpse... i've told this story before so i won't go into detail. i just remember thinking: no way this beautiful girl just gave birth. she was so thin! and i would NOT have talked about my addiction to MURDER SHOWS had i known she could've changed her mind about us during lunch. thank the Lord she likes crime/murder shows as well. i also basically licked my plate, jays plate and all th...

things i have learned lately: unisom is STRONG. i took one (tiny tiny pill) sunday night and no joke, felt like i was coming out of anesthesia monday morning when my alarm went off. i basically did uncommon athlete in my sleep monday morning. i won't be taking that again unless i have 2 days to sleep. thanks jay. i am not a good ice cream scooper. i took out my right middle finger knuckle. dairy queen ice cream is incredibly smooth. how do they get it like that? it's like it has marshmallow fluff in it!? eating like its the holidays during and AFTER the holidays makes every article of clothing you own fit annoyingly TIGHT. time to cool it, kaci. humidity in january is extra annoying. just dance is my favorite hobby. i am addicted. i look old when i am running. i've never understood women who wear makeup to workout...until i saw a picture of myself from my last half marathon. oh my. i look rough!  but still, i will not be wearing makeup. how can girls stand to ...

i was thinking about my life and how life changed in 2012. then i read my friends blog. she wrote some things she learned about herself in 2012. we had several in common! i've always admired emily geyer so it made me smile that we had some common traits. 2012 - changed my life. obviously b/c of Gabriel Wyatt Lesley. (best.kid.ever.) here are some things i learned about myself, life, marriage, etc. just like marriage did, becoming a mom reminded me of how grossly selfish i am. ugh. i hate that part of myself. i didn't know i could love being a mom. i really wasn't sure i had it in me. i wasn't that girl that was yearning for a house full of kids. ok, i'm still not that girl. 2 kids should be plenty...God willing for a 2nd. jay will pay not to change a diaper. money in my pocket. bring on the poop. walking to the kitchen in the middle of the night is dangerous...toys everywhere. i cleanup after Gabe but somehow he still manages to trip me daily. everything...