just because

i just figured i should write a happy blog since i've been on rants here lately. so here we go...no point just happy thoughts... one of my favorite things at the TA office is hearing people trip up the steps. happens all the time. gabe and jay are so darn cute on mondays. it's their hang out day. jay refers to it as manday instead of monday. they typically start out with a big breakfast at cracker barrel. then head out to do manly things. yesterday they went to get jays muffler worked on, get some keys made, and to best buy. i love to see them together. it really is precious. i've mentioned before that gabe and jay wrestle every night. now gabe goes and gets on our bed and says "dada!!!" when he's ready for wrestle mania. when jay is gone in the evenings gabe still expects wrestle time. i am sure i am a disappointment. i don't understand the joys of slamming each other around, pushing, etc. i don't like it at all. boys. remember how i blogged...

honestly i thought about just spouting off all my thoughts in this post. but instead i'm going to keep it positive. (mostly!) can i tell you what makes me proud?! :) seeing godly men treat girls/women as they should be treated. i started dating (like going out on dates not the "he's my BF" silliness of middle/grade school...) my freshman year in high school. but my senior year my dad took me out on "dates" every tuesday night. we'd go to dinner, talk, laugh and share life. it was fabulous. you know why he did it?...other than my moms suggesting i'm sure!) so that i KNEW how i should be treated on dates and in a relationship. he valued me. he asked me ahead of time. he asked where i wanted to go. he listened when i talked. he respected me, encouraged me, challenged me and made me feel worth it. i feel like this generation has stopped taking dating seriously. they just "hang out" and are friends with benefits. they don't ask...

i wish i was getting in the car tomorrow and repeating last weekend. what a fun trip. i am ridiculously blessed with a fun, cool family. really, its almost not fair. my parents took all the kids. (well...) and they fed them crap the entire trip. they had a junk bend for lunch. it was full of chocolate, ranch pretzel bark, chex mix, m&m's (of all sorts), all the candy you could imagine, choc covered raisins, i could go on... mom and i came up with gift bag ideas for each kid. with all their favorite "normal" people snacks and then random snacks specific to each kid - like olives for allie and gabe. but i'm not sure they did that. mimi, poppy and the kids all left before us. so the cabin was good and broken in when we arrived :) josh and claire stopped by the grocery store so they were a bit behind us. jay and i are kinda like the "other kids" in the family. they don't really rely on us for much...haha. kinda sad. vasa was first to greet us! ...

i am so excited to blog about our fall family fun extravaganza. i had a blast. details will come in my next post. i have to start with the most amazing thing... i am somewhat of a control freak. i love routine. i like knowing what is ahead and how to plan for it. spontaneous is not a word those closest to be would use to describe me. i don't think that trait is a sin by itself. but when you tell God that YOU are in control rather than allowing Him to be...thats when it becomes a problem. a big, nasty one. LOOOOOOOOONG story short... for lots of years now (like 8 or 9) i have been aware of part of me that felt gross, dark, kinda like a wall between me and God. don't get me wrong. i have been in a relationship with Him all this time. We've had some amazing moments, millions of hard and precious talks, lots of prayers, etc. but i still felt a sadness. i knew it was a Kaci thing not a God thing. i just couldn't put my finger on it. can i be honest...for some of ...

not sure why it caught me off guard when some people commented negatively on my "sex is for married people" post. it's ok though. i'm not backing down. i love Jesus. i'm not ashamed of loving Him. i was raised in a godly house. my dad is retired minister and my mom studies Gods Word like nobodies business. i am forever thankful for that. their unconditional love, teaching, and actions towards me made understanding Gods love easy for me. at an early age i understood that Jesus died for me. that HE is the only way i am cleansed, forgiven and able to be in a relationship with God. i am fully aware of my sinful nature. but i am also, thankfully, fully aware of His sacrifice for my sins. i know that there is nothing good i can do apart from Christ. i know that i need Him every hour! yes, i fail miserably at times. but He never fails. amen! i shared about purity and abstinence for lots of reasons. none of it being to make someone feel bad for decisions they have...

twice last week i was reminded about how many kids/teens are having sex. the thought of it terrifies me. for lots of reasons...but one (big one) is gabe. i dont want him to grow up surrounded by all this mess. drugs, sex, just doing whatever is "cool" and accepted. forget that mess. i want him to stand up for himself and live a life of integrity. making wise choices. choices that honor us and mostly God. here's what i grew up thinking/knowing/believing...   sex is for married people . make fun of me if you want. i dont care. not one bit. i waited until i was married and don't regret it. YEP, 27 years i waited. go ahead, mock me. see if i care! of course i havent taken any time to think through this before blogging. but here i go (on my rant...) top 10 reasons to wait til marriage: 10. God said to. that could be #1-10. 9. once you have it, it's easier to keep having it. then you quickly become "that girl/guy." i could use more descriptive ter...

my sweet friend dianna cash blogs a thankful thursday list each week. i'm going that route today since what i wanted to blog about what a rant.... and it wasn't pretty. here's what i am thankful for (some will be pointless. whats a kaci blog without pointless info.) gas x. being able to hold back tears when i would otherwise embarrass myself. hearing gabe sing to himself. laughter. unsweet tea only being $1 at dunkin donuts. (free donut scent too.) the food network. college football, sports radio (only during college football) and colin cowherd. anna justice and molly baker. always. country life vegetarian restaurant. that jay doesn't care that i hardly ever wear makeup and real clothes. that TAs Inc doesn't care that i hardly ever wear makeup and real clothes :) Fall. good news for my cousin today. thank you Lord.  avocados a body that works. i am very thankful for my health. getting a letter in the mail (often) from kristen hall. sweet new frie...